Thursday, September 30, 2010
Woke up at 11.30 to prepare for gym. Meet HX at 12.30 to go gym together. Then today gym for a bit cause my arm is aching and going to meet Rion, Eunice and the rest at AMK hub at 2.30pm so I left gym at 1.40pm, went home shower then meet Siang leng at 2pm and we take bus to AMK hub.
When we reach AMK hub at 2.30pm SL then tell me they meet at 3pm so we waited for them. And they reach at 3.30pm so we train down to City Hall and went to Marina Square to watch movie. At first we plan to watch "Chen Zhen" but Ah Jun and Jun Sheng watched already and so we change to watch "The other guy". The movie was quite funny.
After movie we plan to eat at Yuki Yaki but change to Dian Xiao Er, the food there is quite nice. After dinner we went to Starbucks to relax awhile. Then we went back to AMK hub Ichiban to wait for Jun Sheng settle thing. Afterward me and Siang Leng take bus home. That's all for today. Bye bye =D
My thought: I don't know what to post about my thought today. But I am going to say something. I think I kinda like one girl which I don't really know, but the first thing is I don't know how to get close to her. The only thing right now is talking through Facebook. And I wish I could talk to her more =D That's all for my thought today.
Today mood : Normal
I shall be the shadow :~: 11:50 PM
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Woke up at 10.30am get all my thing and went down to meet HX at 11am. Then he reach at around 11.30am and we started to gym and I saw Zhi Xin. So we Gym till 1.30pm and we went to eat Subway, and I accompany HX to Popular to look for his thing then we go separately.
Then I went home watch movie online thing around 5pm then take a nap till 6.30pm woke up and eat some porridge. Then I leave my house at 7pm and walk to Punggol park to meet HX and Rayneth. So we started running at 7.30pm, we started from Punggol park to KPE then Old Tampinese road then back to Punggol park. But I run till Old Tampinese road then I started to walk.
When we reach Punggol park its 8.35pm then I go to HX Grandma house to rest awhile before going home. That's all for today =D bye bye.
My thought: Not much for today bah. But today I watch this movie call "Hear me" it was kinda good. And I wish I can find a girl that love me as much as I love her. Okay I really don't much more thought for today le. I guess no one will be reading it except me D=
Today mood : Normal
I shall be the shadow :~: 9:36 PM
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Today woke up at 10.30am to prepare to meet Hao Xiang to go gym. Then at 11am went down to meet him but he sms me telling me he will be late cause he just wake up so I went back home to slack before he came down. So I waited till 12noon then he sms me say he reaching so we go to gym together. And we gym for awhile Yee Chung came, so we gym from 12.15pm to around 2+.
Then we go and have our lunch at block805, when we are ordering our food Hao Yi and Rayneth came from their work. After we have our lunch we went to Hougang Plaza to play pools for awhile.
Then me,HX ,HY & Mervyn go to Kovan to look at the Adidas clearance sale but they say don't have what they want so we go to the soya bean shop at Kovan to eat bean curd. Afterward we go separately and I forgot to give HY back his key XD.
I was suppose to run with HX just now at 8pm but he got something on so I just ran by myself around my block. I jog for 24min without stopping =D its around 5 round around my block. So I will be doing this for tomorrow, and will be going gym tomorrow, Thursday, Friday, Saturday & Sunday for this week. For jogging part will only be tomorrow cause the other day will be working =.= That's all for today. Bye bye.
Day 7: I guess today mark the day I stop liking her bah. I think I will stop liking girls for now. Although I think it will be impossible cause my heart maybe have another one but I will just keep it to myself. I don't want to make the same mistake I did last time. This time I wait take my time so that I wouldn't make the same mistake.
Today mood : A bit happy :)
I shall be the shadow :~: 9:34 PM
Monday, September 27, 2010
Today woke up at 11.30am go and shower and prepare to meet Hao Xiang, Hao Yi, Samuel, Qi Shen, Leonard, Yee Chung, Rayneth, Derrick at the MRT station. Reach MRT station at 12.30pm the meeting time and no one was there. Wait for 15min and only Leonard came but he tap in without telling me so I don't know where he went so I just sit at one side of the MRT but got kicked out by some guy who is patrolling the MRT cause they think my bag have a bomb =.=
Afterward everyone came and we all take train to Vivo city and reach there about 1pm. And Regina and Jun Guang join us. As it was raining we slack at the top floor of Vivo City waiting for the rain to stop. At 3pm it look like it started to drizzle we buy our ticket to Sentosa and we into Sentosa but when we reach there it started raining again.
But we didn't care about the rain and start playing volleyball and soccer for 3 hours. Although it was raining we have lots of fun playing =D. After playing we went to shower and went back to Vivo City to decided where to eat. In the end we went to The Cathy to eat astons.
So some of us take train to The Cathy and some take bus and we who take train reach there at about 7.30pm and we started queuing up for astons. By the time we got our seat is about 9pm. So we eat and chat till 10pm and left to check for movie. But there is no more movie showing then we all went back home.
That's all for today. Sayonara =D
Day 7: I guess she have fun yesterday with her friend. And I didn't sms her a single thing since yesterday as it will kinda annoy her. The question I want to ask is why other people who's in love can be happy while me who love somebody can't? And I just found out that Jasp and Yvette are together and it was like OMG. But never mind and I wish them to be happy. Although my heart kinda hurt. When I was like wooing her why must she tell me that she want to be single and now like Jasp just ask her she just accept. Maybe the reason is really simple, because all girl like Shuai ge "Handsome boy". No one will even want to think about being with me. Anyway FPN I will never change my feeling for you unless something happen which I don't want to think about.
Today mood : Really really sad D=
I shall be the shadow :~: 10:50 PM
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Today woke up at 9+am to have my breakfast at my usual place. After my breakfast I went home to shower. On my way home saw Hao Xiang, Jun Liang & friend, they were talking about their NPCC thing and Hao Xiang ask me to wait for me. After they chat finish me and HX went to the void deck and chat awhile before he go gym and he say he will be coming down later. And I reach home at about 12noon then go and shower, after showering I went to play my PS3. When I playing my PS3 halfway my brother came to chat also XD They leave at around 1+pm and I stop playing my PS3 at 2pm.
Afterward I went to sleep for 2 hours before going to work. So at 4pm I went out to take bus with my parent as they were going to my Grandma house. When I reach the outlet only the person doing mid shift was there and it was like 4.45pm. All the staff start coming in at 5pm and today I did hosting and it was quite relaxing as Cathy help me out a lot. By the time I go in to help floor it only left with few table so I go and wipe the cutlery and do the setting for the floor. And today we also end quite early and we have our supper and I reach home at 11.30pm. Yvette left her letter with me and she forgot to take it back, so I need to pass it to her on the Friday. That's all for today, Bye bye and see you soon. Tomorrow going to Sentosa outing with secondary school friend XD
Day 6: Today she don't have schedule so she kinda went out with her friend I guess. As I was walking to the bus stop with Suet Fun, I ask her that if Pei Nee is like this and I keep on sms her good night and all that what will she think and she reply saying that she will find me annoying so I decided that I will not sms her good night or anything till things get better. She also tell me that this kind of thing cannot rush must slowly progress. I guess that truth too as my only hope now is to wait. And I wish thing will turn out to be good =D Please.
Today mood : Normal:|
I shall be the shadow :~: 11:55 PM
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Today woke up at around 12noon something like that cause I some how forget everything that happen today =.= . So today was like okay bah, play game watch video until around 4+ then I sms Eunice ask her want to have dinner together. The she say okay and meet around 7+. So we meet at mac and go to 5 star corner to eat western. So we finish our dinner at around 8+ and she say still so early to go outlet, let's go Hougang Mall to buy ear piece cause hers spoil. So we went to the 1st floor of Hougang Mall to check out her ear piece. Then I told her 4th floor also have and we went to 4th floor to see. When we reach there I say "Ops" no more le then we go inside Challenger to check out their ear piece. She say the cheapest one is $15+ leh so we went down to 1st floor to buy her ear piece. After buying we went to take bus to outlet, after we board the bus there was a group of people at the 2nd level of the bus making lots of noise and I need to blast my music in order not to hear them. When we reach Yio Chu Kang Eunice told me that she should have bought the $15+ ear piece. It was like LOL. And I was like keep on forgetting thing cause my umbrella which I brought to outlet like few day ago was still at the outlet because I forgot to bring home till now. And my parent told me to buy newspaper when I go out and on the way to YCK and told myself to buy when we reach which I forgot. So we went to outlet to help them out. After that I went to Cheers at YCK at 10.50pm but it was close so I ask the person inside can I buy the newspaper and she say they already close so I need to go back to Hougang Cheers and buy. Okay that's all for today Sayonara =D.
Day 5: Today is still the same D= she still don't want to talk to me. Okay now she thinking of private her blog D= Why? She really dislike me that much? She really don't want me to read it? Okay I promise that I will only love her and will not change my feeling. So please give me a chance.
Today mood : Really really really sad D=
I shall be the shadow :~: 11:40 PM
Friday, September 24, 2010
Today woke up at 12 to take shower and have my lunch. My sister cook porridge for lunch so I eat some before going for the NEGC. Today NEGC wasn't boring like the 1st and 2nd training because RGS is sitting behind us so can see girl XD. Anyway after NEGC thing went back home and wait for my mum to get back before going to have my dinner. At first I want to order porridge for dinner but afterward I go and order Yu Mian. Then my Father say I though you want to eat porridge then I tell my Father I change my mind XD. After dinner I went back to outlet to help out a bit although Pei Nee is not there but never mind. That all for today =D Bye bye.
Day 4: Today is still the same. She don't want to reply my sms. From today I will sms her good night for as long as possible even though I know she wouldn't reply but never mind. And I was thinking why she never update her blog when she is free which she usually does, the truth is she change her URL. And I think the reason she do that is because she don't want me to read it. Haiz I don't know what to do now.
Today mood : Really really really sad D=
I shall be the shadow :~: 11:58 PM
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Today I woke up at 1pm. Its was like wow I sleep till so late. Hahaha. So I woke up and eat my wanton noodle that my father brought for my again. As I was having my lunch half way Suet Fun call me to ask me to have lunch together with them and I say okay. In the mean time I went to watch Jinnai Tomonori video. The video is damn funny =DDD So around 2.45pm I went down to meet them. And I reach outlet at around 3.15pm and we went to NYP to have our lunch. So Jasp and Suet Fun order from then same store and I didn't buy anything to eat. After they finish Suet Fun went to buy dessert to eat and Jasp went to buy Ice coffee to drink then they were staying at KouFu for awhile so I went to buy the egg set meal. After finishing my meal and chatting awhile we went to the Shopping Arcade in NYP for Suet Fun to withdraw money. And we went back to outlet at around 4.30pm. So we chatted at outlet till 5.30pm and they went to start work. So I stay at the back and play with the dishwasher iphone. Then Pei Nee arrive at around 5.45 for work. She still the same, still ignoring me. At around 6.30pm I went home to have my dinner. After my dinner wanted to buy a new pants at Hougang mall but don't have my size so never buy. Good luck to all my friend who are having exam =D. That all for today, see you soon =D
Day 3: I ask Suet Fun to pass the sweet to Pei Nee. At first she don't want the sweet but Suet Fun told her something in the end she take it. But I had this feeling that she really don't want it. I scared that she will be like this for very very long. She still doesn't want to see me. Actually now I should be at outlet now helping them but I am scared that she will be moody after seeing me there so I didn't went down. What Jasper and Suet Fun told me make sense but I must first make her treat me like friend first if not I also don't think I can do anything now. So now I hope thing will go back to normal.
Today mood: Really really really sad D=
I shall be the shadow :~: 8:58 PM
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Today woke up at 12noon and eat the wanton noodle my father brought for me for like few hours ago. Afterward Jasper told me to meet at Vivo city at 4.30pm so I just watch anime till 3.30pm to meet Dylan and go together. When we board the train Jasper just got out of his house so it was like =.= Anyway Zhi xin and Pei Nee was there first in their P.E and uniform and Jasper reach Vivo at around 4.45pm. Then we just walk around Vivo city and went to iluma at bugis to eat steamboat for dinner. After steamboat went into bugis street to look around and Jasper brought a watch. Afterward me, Dylan & Jasper went to take train home while Pei Nee drag Zhi xin to take bus home with her.
And I reach home at about 9.30pm. So that about everything I want to post for today. Bye bye ~ =D
Day 2: When I reach Vivo city, I sms her to check where she but still there is no reply from her. And I shouldn't have go today, I just had this feeling that she really really hate me. Today we totally never speak to each other, not even a word or a sound. And when we are going home why must she drag zhi xin with her to take bus home WHY!!!! If I say I am not angry and sad I am really lying. I really don't know how to face her next time. Because the feeling she give me now is like telling me to disappear from her sight. I really don't know what I must do to return it to like how it used to be. I am really sad. But there is no one to comfort me. But what I really want is my girlfriend to lent me her shoulder. No one really understand me. I wish FPN will love me. I really wish that will happen. But she like another guy.
Today mood : Really really really sad.
I shall be the shadow :~: 9:43 PM
Okay today morning woke up at around 11am to go for a hair cut XD. After that went home to shower and go to Hougang Mall Mac to meet my NYP friend to go for the NEGC thing at 12.30pm. The NEGC 2nd training start at 2pm and end at 5pm. So we play the VBS2 against other school for training session. The game is seriously bored to the max.
Afterward went home and change into working uniform and go down to Yio Chu Kang to work. Reach YCK interchange at 6.30pm and went to Cheers to buy Lakerol Strawberry for her. But in the end it ended up in my shelf cause I don't know how to give it to her. Even if I were to give it to her I don't think she want it.
Work today was quite relax although there were a lot of customer some how it was quite relaxing. And work today end quite early and I reach home at around 11.30pm. So that about everything I am going to post.
Day 1: I am really sorry if I tell you to be my girlfriend so fast. I am really really sorry if that really hurt you, cause today when working you were like trying to avoid me. Even when I sms you, you wouldn't reply me. What done is done, what said is said. I am really sorry. I really wish that we can be like how we used to be like a friend, although I still have feeling for you. I just want to start from friend because that the only way to be with you. I guess. Each time you walk away from me and each time when I sent you a message and you never reply me, I feel like crying, I feel like you really really hate me, I feel like you are ignoring me. And I really hate this kind of feeling. Fong Pei Nee I am sorry for what I had done. And I LOVE YOU TOO.
I am sad today.D=
I shall be the shadow :~: 12:13 AM
Monday, September 20, 2010
I post this here cause I know no one will read but I just want to type out what I am feeling now.
I know that I suck okay. I am human, I will make mistake but actually whatever I am doing is a mistake. NO ONE F***ING understand me. Right now the only the to make me happy is being in a relationship other then that I don't find joy in other thing. I am 18 maybe people say you are too young to fall in love but why can't I fall in love. 18 years of single is more than enough for me.
Every night I will cry and wish that I can hug you and sleep. I will think what does it feel like when I hug a girl I love? What does it feel like when my girlfriend hold my hand and walk down the street shopping or anything? What does it feel like when my girlfriend kiss me on my cheek & my mouth.
What I type here maybe doesn't matter to anyone, but to me it really matter.
I shall be the shadow :~: 10:52 PM
